TESTIMONIALS
"I was able to relax into the mode i felt at your home-going into my heart and feeling its pain/shape... And i was able to cry and really get it out. So thank you, Chaya Sara!! Thank you for being someone who doesn't just take clients for money, but youre here to help and you really care! And thank you for being an awesome Shliach from Hashem because through you, i feel Hashem's love! Hi Chaya Sara. I am retiring for the night and I can't go to sleep w/o 'checking in' with you to thank you. Again. For giving me a place capable of holding and validating pain of such magnitude. The camaraderie is holiness itself. The social aspect is so healing and revealing for me as well. I am so so grateful. You really do heal Yiddishe kinderlech with your medicine...Thank you."
-R.K
"Chaya Sara, how can I ever thank you for the world of love that you have opened for all of us. You created the most beautiful and safe environment for us. I want to just thank you so much for your beautiful vision and for all the steadfast work you have done for so many. Please breathe in all our gratitude in the hope that the light you ignited in all of us can help shine light on your brilliant path of a life of love and purpose. With so much love and gratitude. Xox."
-R.S.
"I am feeling the love and the kindness of the staff for giving me REAL space to just be my own heeler .
At the beginning it took a lot of energy to connect to the energy of the environment realizing I am the environment I am the energy that Iam and if I bring space energy I am space energy.
And I am feeling great full to the staff and the participants
For just being ,not trying to fit in not pretending that I feel and understand what’s going on the realness of the Shabbat was amazingly beautiful in all feelings
And Iam grateful for Shmily for showing up for all of Shmily the ugly Shmily the joyful Shmily the fat Shmily the sinful S
hmily the holy shmily the loving shmily the shameful shmily the poor Shmily the loving Shmily the pure shmily the Shmily that is trying to be perfect the failure Shmily the successful shmily
I am grateful for self shmily for reddiscovring the broken and the beautiful shmily and giving compassion to all the shmily all the shmily especially
Seeing shmily as is with no judgment of anything
And seeing the truth of creation and the the thruth of the Torah’s statement
אני השם רפואך
Thank you Hashem for heeling
And thank you for who ever is reading this put your name for you for your story
I love myself
Iam looking forward to work on connecting and communicating with other people
With all the heart I see myself"
-A.K.
"I'm still learning to speak my truth in public, (aka public chats) so private message it'll be for now. My heart feels like it's got to express it's deepfelt gratitude to you for providing a safe place for me to let loose, laugh, cry, share, even be silly, and just be me. It was the love, safety, and acceptance that allowed me to access that part of me that can feel Joy. ( I know the things that bring me Joy, but I couldn't access it for a very long time.)
Gosh, I had chills when I met Helena early Wed. morning, ( she claims she had just finished asking Hashem to send her the person she needs to connect with.) She asked me to choose an affirmation card, and I did . Guess what it said? "WHEN YOU SAY YES TO LIFE, LIFE SAYS YES BACK TO YOU"
Remember? after the weekend, I took responsibility for my own life and commited to choosing life every single day of my life. Is life saying yes back to me? May Hashem continue to give you the strength, wisdom,and siyata dishmaya to reveal more of the hidden light in this world. "
-F.B.
"First of all, I feel like I’ve been revived. I think revival has been on my mind since I woke up with a broken rib from CPR earlier this week but tonight, I feel like I was revived emotionally after being stuck for a really long time. Such absolutely powerful and incredible work and I am so grateful to have been there for it. Something came up for me during Leah’s process and I realized there is an underlying desire here and I need to zone in on what that is. I just did a quick PIES and here’s what I discovered about myself:
I thought that my deepest desire was to be validated, believed and trusted. But I just realized that it’s deeper than that. My desire to be believed and trusted has caused me to show up in a way where I bounce back and forth from feeling the need to prove that I’m not okay and that my pain is real, and then on the other spectrum, to constantly prove that I actually AM okay and to minimize and invalidate my own pain.
I think that my truest, deepest desire is not to be a victim. I don’t want to be a victim anymore. I don’t want to live my life based on the pain of the past or the present. I don’t want to be known as the person who is amazing for having it all together, or for the person who everyone needs to feel sorry for.
I. DON’T. WANT. TO. BE. A. VICTIM.
I AM NOT A VICTIM.
I am Sara. I am loving, kind, talented, genuine and pretty damn awesome. I am not defined by my past and I am not defined by my pain. I don’t need to prove my pain to anyone and I don’t need to always be okay. I am human and that means that I have pain and challenges and that sometimes I am okay, and sometimes I am not okay. I have great coping skills and perhaps objectively, it seems like God has some beef to pick with me.
But I don’t want to be defined by that pain anymore.
I want to be known for my kindness, my creativity, my love, my compassion and my generally awesome self : )
I want to be able to show up honestly when I am hurting, without feeling the need to prove that my pain and circumstances are real. I want to be able to show up honestly when I am hurting, and when I am coping. To be able to use my coping skills to get through challenges and be okay with that sometimes looking like I’m subhuman, and to also be okay with letting myself fall apart sometimes. To not need to keep the focus on life’s challenges but to better balance the focus that others see of me (not that I control other peoples views of me, but to better control the focus of what I allow to be seen):
my genuine self- not to hide my struggles when I need support, but to see the whole me, the complete, NON VICTIM, non perfect, ever growing, constantly changing, always learning, sometimes messing up, often being super-duper, truly imperfect me.
End rant. Love you all. Love this newfound awareness. Love this group. Love life. LOVE ME."
-S.S.
"Precious Chaya Sarah. Precious daughter of Hashem. It was a fortunate day when I got to cross paths with you. We dont get to see Hashems ways. But so interesting when we do. I just see my path...walking ..blundering...suffering.....and then poof! Sitting at your first circle, breathing in the wonder of you!!!
May you get a glimpse of the wonderful ways that Hashem leads you to climbing higher and higher, in your path of healing yourself, healing others, and feeling into your own light of malchus and leading your sisters to theirs.
Chaya Sarah, you should be blessed with everything yummy, yiddisha nachas from all your kids, ,spiritual and physical health for the whole family, an abundance of parnassa and the strength and time to enjoy it all.
I love you sending tight hugs!"
-D.N.
"What I learn from Chaya Sara
She makes time for everything
She is fearless in her connection
Her way of being present is complex but so simple
Her humility makes space for easy miracles
She uses infinity as her playground
She charges forward bravely embracing the world daily
She lives to give and share the miracle of connection. I'm happy to keep trying emotion and body code on you and see what kind of results we can achieve. I feel like a new person, completely refreshed, so much more aligned with the emerging healer. Thank you Rebbe. Thank you Chaya Sara.
G-d bless all the blessings"
-N.M.
"'ve been wanting to message you since last week but I was so emotionally exhausted, every time I started putting my feelings into words I had this feeling of 'I don't want to think' wash over me.
I'm just feeling so at peace and talking about my trauma feels completely unnecessary.
This is the first time in 28 years that I feel like I am a person independent of my mother.
It's the first time I am able to dress, think, feel, do, LIVE! without hearing my mother's voice in my head, without feeling her butterflies in my stomach.
Not thinking how she will approve or disapprove of me.
Not only did my mother leave my body,but with her went along her judgment, her mindset.
It is only now that I am realizing that I was constantly viewing the world through her lens.
I am so grateful that I was able to break free of that and claim my space in the world.
Thank you so much! I know you went out of your way to accommodate me that night, but I want you to know that you have literally set me free."
-G.G.